18 school days left....

Realizing that I have 18 days left that I have to be at school is WILD to me. For as long as I can remember I have looked up to seniors and dreamed of the day I would become one. It's only hitting me now that everything I've built and been comfortable with for the past couple years will never be the same. This is different than doing an exchange for a year like I did last year because I came back and everything was like how I left it, but now when I leave it'll never be the same. I saw a tweet a couple days ago that was talking about missing random people from your classes that you were never friends with but you made snarky comments with them or had a quick laugh in class. These people I'll probably never talk to again which I find hard to believe. I have a very hard time letting go of people even if I wasn't extremely close to them and I think that's because the idea of having the last conversation with someone really freaks me out. Irs really making me think about the freedom that I have to choose who moves into the next stage of my life with me and who I am going to LET have an effect on my life (spoiler: dropping the fakes). This realization is both scary and exhilarating.

I'm gonna try and end these last few weeks of school with a bang and really make sure I leave a positive impact on peoples lives before I go.

1:34am